“My life can either point to how awesome I am trying to be, or it can point to how awesome God already is.” – Ruth Chou Simons

I told you last week I’m a perfectionist and an overachiever.

I’ve been thinking a lot about WHY lately.

Why do I feel like I have to do things perfectly? Like if it’s not perfect, I’ve failed?

I think deep down, it’s because I feel like I’m not enough.

And I subconsciously believe that I will only ever BE ENOUGH if I’m perfect.

No mistakes allowed.

So when I read this quote by Ruth Chou Simons not too long ago, it made me stop and think.

Because really, aren’t my attempts at perfection also attempts at making people think better of me?

It’s like I’m grasping for the applause of others. 

And that’s not a place I want to live.

I don’t want to be someone who is constantly looking for the applause of people around me…

Especially not when I SHOULD be using my life to point people to the ONE who actually deserves the applause.

So here’s my plan of attack (I’m a list person – no surprise there – so I made a list!)

1. Work on identity.

Because as long as I feel like I’m not enough…I’ll keep on grasping for something or someone to make me feel like I am.

But once I truly realize – deep down – that because of Christ, I am ALREADY enough, that’s when I can stop striving.

2. Check myself regularly.

Is my life pointing to MYSELF or is my life pointing to God?

Just something that’s been on my mind lately…